[Poem] A Space…

There’s a space, A place. A moment in time, And a site online. It’s a place where I feel safe. Where I feel free; I feel I could be me. I feel accepted, Not rejected. I feel loved, Not judged. I feel hopeful, And powerful. It’s where I feel inspired, And a desire, To do […]

I was abused by my third grade teacher

Growing up Chabad, I went to an all-boys school in Los Angeles. I was always very reserved and emotionally closed compared to my siblings and friends. People would always ask me why? What’s wrong? Are you okay? Well, here is what I was holding in all these years. When I was in third grade, my […]

I was abused by my third grade teacher

Growing up Chabad, I went to an all-boys school in Los Angeles. I was always very reserved and emotionally closed compared to my siblings and friends. People would always ask me why? What’s wrong? Are you okay? Well, here is what I was holding in all these years. When I was in third grade, my […]

The Murder of a Sunny Little Girl

I was a little girl, carefree  Running free outdoors Laughing, giggling, playing Big bows slipping out of tight curls I would climb trees and jump down Play ball and chase all the boys Collect bugs and build forts I was full of joy, there was no reason not to be But that happiness was shortlived […]

If you only knew how I’m hanging by a thread

I wrote the following poem while here for weeks in a PTSD Hospital (together) with (other) girls who have anorexia… I’m struggling between life and death and tried expressing myself to JCW as a voice of a sexual abuse surviver. -anonymous Oh G-d where are you Did you forget me here? I’ve cried aloud to […]

To Rabonim and Askonim from a victim of Todros Grynhaus

This letter was distributed by www.migdalemunah.com An open letter to Rabonim and Askonim In the aftermath of what has been a very difficult time for chareidi leadership in the UK, I ask you to allow me to reflect on my experience as a victim of Mr Grynhaus, and to hear what I have to say. […]

Her heart still beats inside my chest, but she did not survive.

This is not an inspiring or uplifting post, but it is the truth and it demands to be spoken. If people are to truly understand the ramifications of child sexual abuse, they are going to have to hear from those who came back from it… and those who never did. They call me strong. They […]

Incest: The Ultimate Coverup – Follow-Up

I did it. I wrote about my brother sexually abusing me and my parents’ lack of support. Writing about this was not something I had ever planned to do, but it needed to be done. No one likes to talk about incest, yet it is the most common of all kinds of abuse. No one […]

Incest: The Ultimate Coverup

I have been silent for far too long. I want the world to know about the abuse I suffered at the hands of my brother. What he did to me for years and who he really is. But I can’t. I am sworn to secrecy, I am shamed into silence. If I speak up, I […]

[Poem] It seems one step forward Is seven steps back

She places one foot In front of the other Determined to climb The mountain before her She grabs at the stone She swears she won’t stop Until she’s gripped, clawed and battled Her way to the top Her body is bruised Her fingernails black And it seems one step forward Is seven steps back The […]

In just 30 seconds my brother changed my life forever

It happened “just” twice. But, twice is more than enough to change your life forever. Sexual abuse is often thought of as a long grooming process followed by frequent and ongoing instances of abuse that become more severe over time. However, that is not always the case. Even one incident destroys the victim’s ability to […]

Egypt: A Passover Poem by a Survivor

As I was sitting at the seder table, Hearing the story of my ancestors being freed, I began to cry in silence, Because redemption is what I need. The Jews in Egypt went through hell, Burying each other because it was too much to survive, I think of days I am falling apart, Wishing I […]

“Why can’t you just let it go?”

An area of sexual abuse that deserves particular attention and is not discussed often enough is abuse within families, also known as incest. In addition to the many well known effects that any child of abuse goes through, survivors of incest are forced to endure a very unique set of circumstances. Our heart are prayers […]

To the man who stole my innocence 18 years ago

I’m constantly checking out my surroundings whenever I walk alone. I fear when a man gets near me, he will grab me aside and abuse me the way you did. This thought never leaves me. In the elevator, parking lot, playground or even when the delivery man comes to my door.

WHERE COULD I TURN WHEN WHEN THREE OF MY KIDS WERE ABUSED

A few years ago, sadly, I found out that my daughter had been abused. I didn’t know any details, but with all the pain in my heart, I believed her and on that day our lives changed forever. We moved to a new state, a new place with a new hope and we knocked on a lot of doors trying to reach people and […]

THE DAY I LOST MY CHILD

She was a beautiful child of seven; filled with joy and life. She loved to sing and dance and play pretend with her siblings. One day, a man walked into her life. A man we’ll call Tom. This man was a very unhappy person–although you couldn’t tell it by looking at him. He had a […]