Submitted to JCW by a brave survivor of incest.
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Mommy?

Tatty?

Can you see me?

Can you see my pain?

I know you feel like I have torn the family apart

I know that my inability to ignore the past has made you face your limitations

I know how hard it must be to hear what your son did to his baby sister

It must be so painful for you

It must be so painful that you just can’t face it

It must be so painful that the truth no longer matters

That must be why you stand behind him

That must be why you can’t face me. Can’t support me

That must be why you blame me

I must be at fault because the alternative is unbearable

It must be too painful to see me.

I’m a constant reminder of your pain.

Of your failure as a parent to protect me.

I’m sorry that I shattered your picture-perfect family

I’m sorry that I let myself be broken

I’m sorry that I refuse to be silent

Maybe one day you will love me enough to admit you made a mistake

Maybe one day you will be able to see past your pain to acknowledge mine

Maybe one day you will think I am worth fighting for

I’m right here.

Waiting.

Hoping.

That one day

You will see me.

Love,

Your estranged daughter.