When you close your eyes and try to sleep
When the cliff you’re climbing is way too steep
When the pain is so great that you want to let go
When there are so many things you don’t want to know
When you hear the hatred in his voice
When the moment comes and you have no choice
When his hands and fingers dance over your skin
That second you know it will happen again
When you see that to him it was just a game
When you realize you have lost and it won’t be the same
When your eyes squeeze shut and your fist clench tight
When you know you are helpless, it’s useless to fight
When you know that he’s bigger and stronger than you
The second you realize that it’s real and it’s true
The moment when time just seems to stand still
The second he takes you and it’s against your will
When you know that you’re weak and you know that you’re small
And any resistance you offer won’t matter at all
When the hurt is so great that you stifle a shout
The time when it hits you that you’ll never get out
When he owns your body and destroys your soul
When his actions and words have taken their toll
When you cease to exist, when he owns who you are
When you dream of running but don’t get too far
In that pivotal moment when you first sense the change
When time stands still, when it all feels so strange
When all of the hoping and praying is done
When you let out your breath, when it’s over, he’s won.